Monday, June 29, 2009
Teeter Totter Faith
If you are anything like me, waiting on God to answer a specific prayer is one of the hardest struggles in your spiritual life. I feel like the last three months have been a constant teeter totter of faith vs. impatience. In April, when Bruce and I were certain that God was leading us to take some sort of sabbatical from full-time ministry, I was nervous and secure all at the same time. In 16 years of marriage there has never been a time that we were not consumed (in a good way) with a church family. I wondered how this was all going to play out. How long would God tell us to wait? How long could we endure it?
I realized it wouldn't be long about 4 weeks ago when I saw Bruce face light up after he led a little boy in our community to the Lord one night. The family called, and Bruce sprang into action. It was like he had never missed a beat. So when his pastor from childhood called and offered a part-time position to Bruce, I was pretty sure it was a done deal. But I was wrong. Bruce and I spent time in prayer and weighed the pros the cons and the finances. There was no way we could afford a mortgage and rent in a new town...especially with only a part-time job. Yet, somewhere in the middle of all the human rationalization, God was saying..."Go".
So we said "Yes". We figured if we tried to obey, God would do His part and provide. The next day we were given a check for $1200...like God was telling us..."watch me...I can do more!". So, after the call was made, we continued to pray. Two days later the offer turned into a full-time job offer. With benefits...insurance. retirement.
No...our house hasn't sold...but can you understand why I am not worried about it? God's got that under control. During the last 2-3 months our circumstances have been awkward, lonely and sometimes a little discouraging, yet God has been right here with us. Carrying the burdens, refreshing our spirits and encouraging us to stick with this hunt for His Will.
So...for those of you still reading (bless you)...Bruce will be an associate pastor involved in outreach, discipleship, teaching and assimilation. Please pray this transition is smooth for the church and for Bruce.
A few prayer requests:
1. Sell of our house here.
2. Transition for us all to be smooth.
4. God would be glorified and honored in all of this!
A few praises:
1. There's a huge homeschool community there for us to be involved in.
2. My kids enjoy staying at hotels...which might be our home away from home for awhile.
For those of you who have prayed for us....thank you. This has been a 12 week journey..I don't know how well we did, but I am thankful for all I have learned and praise the greatest Teacher of all.